Yes, you read that right. I want to give mine away. For those of you that have known me for a while (don't admit how long!!) travelled with me along my personal journey through Hell. Infertility testing damn near killed me and I sure didn't want any doctor near female organs again. My primary doctor finally talked me into doing the "exam" and--she separated from the organization she has been with since 1992--don't get me started there. So, I've been having problems--which really came to a head in Krygz--where bathrooms are a luxury. Sick of it, I start on birth control pills. First couple of months , no real effect, change--serious issues, third try--well, I've been having issues for over 4 weeks now. On Sunday night, I damn near passed out on a patient. Yeah--want me to be your nurse??? I came home and I'm now refusing to drive since I don't feel safe. I've called in sick to work now and I'm taking medical leave. The poor doctor who took over has been so nice, but tomorrow I'm going to specialist for an ultrasound, biopsy and God knows what else. I highly suspect a D and C.
So, anyways, there is a little bitterness here. First the uterus fails to provide me with a baby--instead a major hospital stay and long term drugs. Then, every month, I suffer with cramps and bleeding that pretty much lay me up for a couple of days. Now this. This is 25+ years of misery for an organ that can't do what it's supposed to do!!! Piece of crap. Least you think I'm unhappy with how life is--absolutely not! I would go through it all again for Julia, Rauan and Alihan. In a heartbeat. However, I can't work, drive, play with my children, live any kind of normal life. I've been warned that "you don't want a hysterectomy" and "all that causes is problems". I think I've suffered more then enough.
I WANT MY LIFE BACK!!!!
ok--if any of this seems out of character for me--blame the hormones. I've been hormoned up the ying yang--and yes that is artificial hormones. I'm keeping the drug companies and Tampax in business.
Please say a prayer for me tomorrow. Last time anyone messed with my uterus I had a "lovely" stay at the hospital. Nervous and scared can't even come close to my emotional state right now.