Surgery

Does it make any sense that I'm more nervous about this surgery then any of the others? I'm calm, but at the same time nervous. Maybe it's just because none of the children have had this surgery before. I remembering being totally freaked about Julia's first surgery, when she had only been home for 2 weeks, to have her palate and lip closed. I don't know. I think it's always going to be hardest when it's Julia--since she's the first, she's the only girl (ok--she is tougher then the boys) and maybe because she was the answer to many prayers. Ok, now I know I'm tired. Night all!